While walking Sampson one morning, I was walking and praying, head down, looking at my shoes and socks. My shoes were worn, I brought them from Alabama and since being here, my job changed and the bottom fell out and couldn’t afford to buy any more so they were looking pretty bad. They still had good soles and no holes but they were sure ugly. I had a pair of my son’s socks on because I didn’t have any of my own…couldn’t afford them either. You know things are pretty dire when you can’t afford socks. I looked like an orphan and worse, I felt like one too.
Somehow looking at my shoes and socks the desperation of our situation became very real to me. Fear and sadness rushed me and with it God recalled to my mind His words: “Pray without ceasing…” (1st Thessalonians 5:17) and “but my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19) so in tears I prayed for socks. “I’m thankful for my son’s socks Lord, thankful my feet aren’t cold but honestly, I would like to have my own socks. Maybe someday soon, when things are better, You will see fit to let me have my own socks so I won’t have to wear his anymore…I believe it won’t always be this way but if it is thank You that we have what we need…” and kept walking.
Anyone else would think me silly; I kind of thought how petty I was being even thinking about socks when faced with so many challenges…so many mountains that I just couldn’t see my way over. At that moment, it seemed like I was doomed. I could barely buy groceries and faced with the threat of eviction on top of losing 75% of my income, I was feeling pretty hopeless and I was full of self-pity.
A couple of days later my next door neighbor stopped me and told me they had been given some clothes and after she went through them if I wanted them I could go through them to see if there was anything we needed. I walked over and got the bags and began going through them. In one of the big bags at the bottom was a white, smaller bag. When I opened the bag I couldn’t believe my eyes. Socks, pairs and pairs of brand new women’s socks. While going through them crying so hard I couldn’t see I remembered just two days before my heartfelt prayer and I was reminded, yet again, my Father knows every need, He hears every prayer and He provides.
A couple of things came to me while I rejoiced over my provision: 1) answered prayers may not look like we think they ought to. See, I thought when I had the money I would buy my own socks. I never considered hand-me-down clothes would contain my answer and 2) God answers prayer in many ways but one thing is for sure…He can’t answer if we don’t ask. I wonder had I not prayed if my neighbor would have been prompted to even give me what she didn’t want!
I learned a valuable lesson that day. Pray about EVERYTHING. At a time when I felt absolutely worthless and that life as I knew it was over I still believed in God, His ability to provide our needs and He hadn’t abandoned me – He was there. When I didn’t see how things were ever going to get better, He showed me with socks that He is intricately involved in EVERY detail of our lives.
The answers to our prayers may not come like we think they should which I have come to believe is exciting! Sacred socks infused a new faith in me because now when there’s a need I have a renewed expectation of Him knowing He will provide…I just don’t know how which makes like more of an excellent adventure. The important thing is, I truly believe He will answer. Do you?
Those socks at that time in my life were like manna from heaven. From then on, I gave Him permission to provide any way He wants to and I have a new gratefulness in my heart. Every time I get dressed and put them on I remember He hears, He provides and I know if He will give me socks, everything else we need is covered.