It’s been a wet and dreary winter. Temperatures dropped well below freezing several times. Looking at the landscape of my beautiful mountains at times all I saw was gray and dark. Thank God winter is just a season.
This season has taken its toll. You’ve been through it. You’ve lost what you didn’t think you would and hurt like you’ve never hurt. Some things were ripped from your ever-trying-to-hold-on hands and some you let go of. You’re tired and beat up, perhaps feeling like you have nothing else to give. Maybe you’re asking yourself why fight to survive anymore if after as hard as you’ve tried the result is the barrenness and nakedness you’re now feeling.
Coming out of an extremely hard season myself, I know what that feels like. I also know that what I’ve lost pales in comparison to what I’ve gained. For a while though, I felt like a dead person walking. I couldn’t feel anything and didn’t care about anything…I just wanted it to stop.
Barren. Stripped. Gutted. What do we do when we find ourselves in such a whipped condition? This, in my mind, is one of the many “works” of salvation…the most important one and I’m finding it occurs often. This is where we decide if we believe that God really (in every respect of the word) is who He says He is to us, personally. If He is, then something good will come from the destruction; if He isn’t then it was all for nothing.
Dare we believe after all this? Dare we find comfort deep within ourselves from a God who allowed such devastating things to happen? What else can we do? We can allow ourselves to be bitter, despondent and depressed or we can muster up the strength to take a step into our tomorrow.
I took this picture this morning. This tree branch was ugly and naked just yesterday; now look at it. Just because they have buds on them doesn’t guarantee they won’t get broken or a frost won’t come. Just because we dare believe and walk in absolute faith doesn’t mean things won’t get testy from time to time.
We’re not barren just because we’ve been through something traumatic but it sure feels that way. Maybe we just needed to get cleaned out and gain a new perspective on things, on what’s really important. God doesn’t allow tests and trials to show HIM something – He allows them to show US something – what kind of faith we really have and who we really are.
What you need to survive is in Him and if He’s in you, then all you need to go on is, too. Will you bloom today or will you wither? The choice is always yours.