Monthly Archives: April 2016

Tis the Season

Waiting.  Waiting. Hoping. Believing…yet doing nothing.  I know what I should do; I know what I want to do, but I don’t.  Not even the thing I most want to do.  I’m waiting for the weather, car to be fixed, to be more rested, for this to happen, that to happen. I’m looking to the sky (and everywhere else) to see a sign – I’m waiting for conditions to be perfect.  Guess what.  It hit me today that will never, ever be the case.

Pining, mourning the things that have happened; the decisions made and the decisions not made and the shame and embarrassment that goes along with all that.  Yes, I’ve been set free in many respects, see a lot of things in a different light, but I’ve allowed myself to be placed in a new cage.  I’m the jailer.  I have the key.

We’ve have ridden the spiritual high and expected it to last and never feel the things we’ve felt in the past…and when the feeling flees we believe the lie that we can’t so we don’t.  No more.

“In season and out of season” implies much, much more than what we see.  It means to love, to tell, to share what’s between us and God, thanks to Jesus, regardless.  Waiting for the perfect opportunity is a lie.  MAKE the opportunity.  Go get it.  Make your place.  Set the pace and keep going no matter how you feel.  Just. Do. It.

Today is the “season” – regardless of ANY circumstance – to do what you were made to do.  Regardless of how we feel, what we think, and what has happened, let’s just rejoice in the now and make the most of every opportunity.

Exercising Hope

One of the greatest delights and desires of my heart this time of year is to see hummingbirds.  As I’ve said many times I believe they’re tiny angels.  I marvel at them.  When I lived in Alabama they showed up in abundance and I had my work area set up so that I could watch them from dawn until dusk.  Since I moved here, sadly, I have only seen them when I’ve visited my friends.  Only ONE hummingbird visited my house and that was the year before last!  To say I was disappointed would be an understatement.

There are probably several reasons for that.  I moved three times my first year here, all under less than favorable circumstances.  Perhaps they couldn’t find me.  Maybe if I could have consistently stayed where I was, they would have come. I would try putting the feeders here and there – always moving them and always being disappointed.

I remembered this morning reading a story about hummingbirds.  If they live they always come back to where they visited the previous year.  Always. So I place partial blame on me that I didn’t get the blessing of the hummers and yet have to wonder if perhaps they never came to those places.  Last year, I didn’t put feeders out.  I gave up.  I didn’t believe they would come so I made the decision to do nothing.

Don’t ever stop believing. Keep going to scriptures that encourage and help you believe and SEE that God IS busy whether His activity manifests itself externally or not.

I put feeders out this morning and prayed while doing it for two reasons:  1) The Bible says to pray about everything and 2) I was physically exhibiting the HOPE that I would see hummingbirds this year and FAITH that God is going to bless my prayers and those little earth-angels WILL come. HOPE is a VERB – it means to wait, tarry, EXPECT.

Guess what I just saw.  My heart is full and tears flood my eyes as I type this. What a lesson…and a blessing.

Romans 5:5  “and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.”

 

Praying for Pancakes

I don’t know what it is, but I’ve never been able to make excellent pancakes.  They’re okay but not excellent.  I want excellent pancakes.

This morning I decided to pray before I started the preparation so I did.  Right off the bat, I put too much liquid in the batter so immediately I thought I had failed…again.  Disappointed already, I considered throwing the batter away and starting all over but that didn’t set well with me either.  We don’t throw food away at my house, unless it has something growing from it.  No waste is a cardinal rule here.  So, already thinking they would be a flop (tongue in cheek) I proceeded.

I talked to God again telling Him this would be a prime opportunity to display His ability (definitely not mine) of making something beautiful (and delicious) out of another mess I made if He would kindly bless my pancakes.

Well.  To my surprise I think they were the best I’ve ever made, perfectly browned, perfectly shaped and absolutely delicious.

I’m reminded that even when (not if) things don’t start well, don’t give up and toss the project.  Even if we’ve prayed, followed the directions to a tee sometimes things don’t turn out well and sometimes we can be absolutely astounded by the finished product.  One thing’s for sure:  we’ll never know unless we trust God enough to just keep trying…and finish the task.

Silly perhaps to you, but again, I’m reminded how prayer can literally change EVERYTHING.  Even pancakes!

Philippians 4:6:  “Be anxious for nothing, but IN EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication,  with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God…”

Shattered and Scattered

John 16:32

The disciples had witnessed many miraculous things and received powerful teaching from The Supreme Teacher. They believed He was the Son of God, the Redeemer and the promised Messiah.  If anyone asked them they were quick to tell who He was, but now He was telling them He was going away – going back to The Father.  Jesus was telling them that in a short while, they would scatter and leave Him alone.  They didn’t believe Him.

How could they leave Him?  How could He leave them? The thought of it sounded crazy but it happened.

Don’t we do the same thing?

We have preconceived notions of God and how He’s going to bless us and work things out in our lives.  That’s as real as our faith is to that point.  That’s what we’re taught and we believe God (and Jesus) are who they say they are and we live based on our faith as we know it.

What if the unthinkable happens, though, do we still believe?  What if your child gets sick, you lose your job, you lose everything you have, your spouse dies.  When God allows you to be shattered, will you still choose to love God and trust Him or will you “scatter”?

Although I have been blessed with my heart’s desire and am physically living in it, it hasn’t been easy or even pleasant at times.  My perception of “trust”…of even who I thought God was and certainly how He would see to me have totally disintegrated.  Shattered, I became scattered and my God – I thought – had failed me.

I think God allows extremes to take us to the “next level” – if we choose to go.  We don’t have to.  Many have abandoned their faith in God when He allows extremes.  When we’re smashed with something we don’t see coming, we’re rattled, and perhaps for a moment, knocked off our foundation.

Many times, all we can do is believe in Him and choose NOT to believe what we feel and see.  I’ve said that many times.  In brokenness and despair when everything around is distorted and we’re shattered to our core, ready to cut and run (or lay down and die) – we’re at a crossroad of giving in or going on.  Will we choose to still trust Him?  Will we muster the strength to take one more step with Him?

The disciples did scatter when Jesus was arrested but something made them remain in the distance to see what happened.  They saw Him tortured, watched Him die and His body be buried. They gathered together in their grief only to see Him return to them more alive than He had ever been.  The first thing He said to them was “PEACE”.

During the shattered times, if we choose to hang on through what we go through He will do the same for us.  He’ll bring us back together, repair our shattered hearts and seal in us a much stronger faith…if we only believe.  He’s done that for me in ways I can’t begin to tell you.  He’ll do the same for you if you’ll hold on just a bit longer.