The disciples had witnessed many miraculous things and received powerful teaching from The Supreme Teacher. They believed He was the Son of God, the Redeemer and the promised Messiah. If anyone asked them they were quick to tell who He was, but now He was telling them He was going away – going back to The Father. Jesus was telling them that in a short while, they would scatter and leave Him alone. They didn’t believe Him.
How could they leave Him? How could He leave them? The thought of it sounded crazy but it happened.
Don’t we do the same thing?
We have preconceived notions of God and how He’s going to bless us and work things out in our lives. That’s as real as our faith is to that point. That’s what we’re taught and we believe God (and Jesus) are who they say they are and we live based on our faith as we know it.
What if the unthinkable happens, though, do we still believe? What if your child gets sick, you lose your job, you lose everything you have, your spouse dies. When God allows you to be shattered, will you still choose to love God and trust Him or will you “scatter”?
Although I have been blessed with my heart’s desire and am physically living in it, it hasn’t been easy or even pleasant at times. My perception of “trust”…of even who I thought God was and certainly how He would see to me have totally disintegrated. Shattered, I became scattered and my God – I thought – had failed me.
I think God allows extremes to take us to the “next level” – if we choose to go. We don’t have to. Many have abandoned their faith in God when He allows extremes. When we’re smashed with something we don’t see coming, we’re rattled, and perhaps for a moment, knocked off our foundation.
Many times, all we can do is believe in Him and choose NOT to believe what we feel and see. I’ve said that many times. In brokenness and despair when everything around is distorted and we’re shattered to our core, ready to cut and run (or lay down and die) – we’re at a crossroad of giving in or going on. Will we choose to still trust Him? Will we muster the strength to take one more step with Him?
The disciples did scatter when Jesus was arrested but something made them remain in the distance to see what happened. They saw Him tortured, watched Him die and His body be buried. They gathered together in their grief only to see Him return to them more alive than He had ever been. The first thing He said to them was “PEACE”.
During the shattered times, if we choose to hang on through what we go through He will do the same for us. He’ll bring us back together, repair our shattered hearts and seal in us a much stronger faith…if we only believe. He’s done that for me in ways I can’t begin to tell you. He’ll do the same for you if you’ll hold on just a bit longer.