There she is again. Every time something goes wrong, even with something goes right, this wicked monster is the first to cast stones. She’s quick to remind me of everything I’ve ever done wrong. Every day, I must contend with her.
Every day, she reminds me of how weak and beaten up I am and all I’ve been through. Minute by minute if I listen to her, I’m reminded of why I shouldn’t try, why I shouldn’t believe for better and should quit while I’m ahead. With every new day, the old stares me in the face – if I focus on her long enough, her voice overpowers the God in me.
Perhaps the most important choice is at the beginning of the day, deciding who you’re going to listen to. The giant doesn’t lie, she tells the truth…her version of it, anyway.
She wants to keep my focus on the past and all the pain affiliated with it. She needs an excuse to make no effort. Not because she doesn’t believe (she does – she knows God) but because she does and she knows if I choose not to listen to her (myself) and heed His word and His truth instead, efforts must be made, exercises in faith and trust must ensue. She’s tired. She’s weary and she’s discouraged. She finds very little reason to believe a single word she says or trust even a fleeting thought of hope. It’s all justified. Just like a victim seeking revenge on her assailant, her actions would be righteously justified.
Here’s the thing, though. She’s submitted to God so her right to herself has been relinquished to His right to her. Her own actions to justify herself are null and void…She’s put her trust and heart into the hands of a Mighty Savior who has already won the battle with the giant of herself. All she has to do is believe it. She knows she’s no match for fighting the giant but she’s sure her Jesus is more than capable for the battle of the day. It’s not her strength against who she sees (and remembers) in that mirror that will have victory this day; it’s His.
Every single day, the choice is ours. Who will lead you? Who will you listen to? Who will you believe? Yourself or Your King? The battle is won or lost with that one decision. The truth is, we may have to make that decision on a minute by minute basis. It won’t be easy (the past will attempt to discourage); it won’t be fun (fighting ourselves is ugly and messy) but we will be victorious against our giants if we choose to fight with all of our armor on – trusting Him with everything they throw at us. Are you in?
“…even if our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything.” 1st John 3:20 NLT