Saturday. Friday had happened and they saw the One whom they had based everything on, left their lives for believing He was Messiah…tortured, nails drive through His hands and feet, hung on a cross and take His last breath. So many thoughts and doubts must have raced through their confused minds. How could the Son of God – the Promise – die? I feel sure they watched from afar as His lifeless body was taken down.
Do you know what hopeless feels like? To have everything you believed in…believed for die right in front of you? I imagine what the disciples, Jesus’ mother and the other followers were feeling was the epitome of that word. I wonder if they even remembered the many conversations He had with them, telling them that exactly what had happened would and that it wasn’t what it appeared to be or felt like it was. I imagine they were so grieved and perhaps scared that they had forgotten.
Can you relate? You just experienced a devastating blow and after what you’ve been through you may feel it’s over, that there is no point in even hoping, let alone trying to go from here. This is where everything changes and you’re not sure if you have the courage to believe, one more time, enough to go on. That’s the place of in between where feelings and faith collide. On one hand, you want to trust and believe enough to take the next step, but you feel like your world as you knew it has just ended and there is really no point.
That’s the place where dreams die and bitterness and depression creep in…if we let them. If we’re not careful, we can find the courage to walk on from that place and allow our faith to die. Don’t let that happen.
Hang on, just a bit longer. Remember and recite every single promise God has made to YOU. If He is allowing you to endure devastation, it’s part of a greater destiny. Sure, it hurts, and absolutely, you’ll be changed forever because of it – perhaps that’s grief’s intent. We can choose to go from here and be changed for the better or be infected by bitter.
In that place of in between, God is the same as He was yesterday. Still in control, still loving and still all-knowing. Just like the disciples on that dark Saturday, although they were devastated they made it through it. You will too. “Be not afraid, only believe”. Mark 5:36