I hope I’ve learned a thing or two from this season of my life. I sure wouldn’t want to repeat it.
When things are dark and ugly sometimes we have to dig deep to find the good. Sometimes we instantly see it but more often than not we must wait.
One of the most recent lessons is becoming so precious to me. I looked for blessings and kind of expect people to make an ugly time in my life more palatable and easier to swallow. (Is that you I hear laughing?) I didn’t realize it at first but now I see that in addition to very tough circumstances, my disappointment worked extremely hard to make me discontented. Then I got it.
Sometimes it’s got to be just you and God. No one else. No resources. No explanations. No Band-Aids. Just you and Him. I think He brought me to that place to allow me the choice to be content with Him and only Him. When everything and everyone I looked to, to make me feel more secure and content – job, home, stuff, car, people, etc,…vanished, “Barbie, will I be enough?” was the reverberating question on my heart.
When life gets ugly that’s where the rubber meets the road. We’re left with both decisions and changes to make. When all you see is ugly, we can choose to make our own pretty. Staying content in a troubling and discontented world is very hard work! That’s when we learn to appreciate what we have and make the most of it.
I took some hand-me-down vases, some Salvation Army plates and paints I already had to make these. I made my own beautiful. So many stories and devotionals…so many personal lessons from God have come through the process of making them.
Trust God through the process. That’s what I’m learning. Trust He’s making something beautiful in you and most often when He’s through with that part, what you’ve been through will serve at least two purposes: 1) to teach you something and, 2) to bless someone else! In the meantime, work with Him to create your own beautiful.
“For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.” Ephesians 2:10