Don’t worry, if you’re worried, that this present issue you’re dealing with will kill you. It wasn’t designed for your demise. It was designed to prepare you for your destiny. That’s both good and bad!
The enemy through which this circumstance, place you’re in, or person you’re dealing with desires to make you miserable (if you’re a believer). He doesn’t want you dead for many reasons, the most important of which is the fact he knows where you’re going and he can’t use you anymore once you’re physically present with Christ. He knows how salvation works; I think he witnessed it while in heaven with God. No friend, he doesn’t want you graveyard dead; he wants you spiritually dead.
The enemy wants you alive so he can rejoice in watching you suffer! He wants you to feel everything thrown at you. He wants you to focus on your broken heart, your shattered dreams and the depression and sadness you feel. He wants you to stay completely focused on yourself and how hard life is. He loves that.
The enemy wants you to be so afraid of past disappointments, failures and rejection that you don’t dare venture out of your self-imposed prison to believe God. He wants you to believe your doubt and past experiences more than you dare believe God. He wants you to constantly recall the times you ventured out in 100% nothing but faith and things didn’t go like you planned. He wants you to remember how crushed you were when even the things you did for God weren’t easy, in fact they were extremely difficult. He’s aware that the seed of doubt was planted back then and he does everything in his power to see to it your doubt grows every time you even think about stepping out in faith. You remember every single pain and disappointment of that time. Some will never, because of the pain and devastation, take a step…let alone a leap…of faith, ever again. That place of doubt becomes the cemetery where their faith is buried.
If you’re reading this, you’re not dead. You reached for a smidgen of encouragement – a “mustard seed” of faith. God allowed what happened to you, to happen. He has his reasons, some of which may never be understood so maybe it’s time to quit trying to understand and just simply trust. You’re not dead. You’re still here and if you’ll just lift your head up, pour your heart out and believe that all things – all things work to the good for those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose, then He can heal and restore you. It may not be easy and it may take some time, but if you’ll believe and stay with it, He will do things for you, in you and through you that will strengthen your heart, heal your mind and way of thinking and touch your weary and wounded soul.
Sometimes it takes a lot of courage and strength to believe after you’ve been hit hard but what do you have to lose? Come on out to the Light. Darkness doesn’t become you at all. If all things aren’t possible for those who believe, He wouldn’t have said it. Come on. Believe one more time, then another and another. Don’t let the enemy rob you of one more second. Just breathe and believe.