I have issues. Deep rooted, core issues, things I wrestle with on a daily basis.
Three years ago after a huge move back to East Tennessee, I had a change in my job which triggered a long term downward spiral in my life. No money, car broke down, I could go on and on but it was traumatic and took a long time to recover from – every area of my life was impacted.
To this day because of that, I sometimes wake up in a cold sweat paralyzed in fear that it will happen again. I can’t seem to shake it. The FEAR of what has happened happening again holds me hostage and like a hostage negotiator with prayer and reading the Bible, God convinces me to “come out” – to believe and relax, relying 100% on Him.
This morning I was reading Genesis 22 pulling a lesson together for Sunday School tomorrow. I confess to you I was doing this after I had been outside with my dog and seeing that I have a FLAT TIRE!!!!!!!!!!!
Every time I read this chapter, I try to put myself in Abraham’s place, walking up that mountain with his son of promise, the son God promised him in his old age; the son he waited for 25 years for; the very same son God asked him to sacrifice. The “spiritual” Abraham walked that walk in faith but I wonder what the “physical” Abraham was thinking.
I got to the part where he tied Isaac to the altar, 100% willing to kill him (KILL HIM!) out of 100% obedience to God. When something’s tied to the altar, it can’t escape. There’s my problem. I put things, concerns, prayers…ME…on the altar – totally in my heart giving whatever it is, including myself to God…but I don’t tie it down. In other words, when I get scared or I don’t understand I pull it right back up and walk away with it…then I bring it back…then take it back…then…
Oh God. Help us TIE IT DOWN! Help us leave it at the altar; help us have the faith of Abraham to 100% believe You and who You are and act accordingly, believing who You are. That would mean we can’t act based on our feelings, fears or frustrations. Help us to believe in You more than we believe in ourselves and even what we see. Help us to seek the ram! Help us to live in confident expectation that because You ARE our Provider, You will provide. That’s who You are! Forgive us our little faith. Help us to remember Your promises and to walk in Proverbs 3:5-6.
Whatever your “it” is, take it to God, tie it down and leave it there.
Proverbs 3:5-6; Genesis 22