Here is a picture of the designs I’ve made that are faulty in some way…at least to my eye. I don’t feel they’re good enough to be put on something to go out to the public so instead of throwing them away I stuck them on my bedroom window. Look how beautiful they are! I love it when light shines through that window and they pop. Makes me smile every time! Although I can look at each one of them and see my mistakes, they’re still beautiful.
Nobody is flawless. Unfortunately, we make mistakes, we hurt those closest to us. We have all kinds of scars and misconceptions about ourselves. If we let our imperfections take over; if we allow to believe the ugly things said about us (and those we say about ourselves) we can start to believe we’re of no good use, unlovable and unforgivable.
When I was little, I totally believed what I overheard some family members telling each other about me: “She’s not worth anything; she’ll never amount to anything” and for a long time I lived like I believed that, to the point of contemplating suicide.
At some point, we all – no matter what vile things we’ve done or how deeply we’ve been hurt – have to decide who we will believe and decide what kind of person we’ll be. We all have a past; we all have regrets and wishes for better decisions and choices. The good news is, all of it can be used for good. We ARE good enough – good enough for God to love, heal, cherish, and make us in to who He designed us to be in the first place.
Just like these “mess-ups” I put on the window, I could have thrown them away. Instead I chose to repurpose them and look at the difference they make on an ordinary window! The same is true for us. You never know how God will use what we’ve been through, the pain we’ve suffered and the mistakes we’ve made unless we own up to them, ask forgiveness and choose to believe He can make us better than we were yesterday. With His touch, the possibilities are endless.
Not good enough? Every time I feel that way, I’m going to look at this window. Beautiful. And very good!
“God saw all that He had made, and behold, it was very good.” Genesis 1:31a