Provision and Providence
PROVISION (def) The act of providing or supplying something. The act of making preparations for a possible or future event or situation.
PROVIDENCE (def) Care or preparation in advance; foresight.
Around 35 years ago I was working for Dad when he came in and announced he had sold his pharmacy. Good for him. Bad for me. As tough as things were then I had to worry about how I was going to survive. There I was with a 5-year-old special needs child. What was I going to do? To shorten a bit, Dad talked to the board member (another local pharmacist with a thriving business) of our local hospital who told him the only job available was that of a transcriptionist.
What. Was. That. I had done all kinds of jobs in my life but never one like that. I knew I could find a job but it would be a little tougher with a sick child and going around a school schedule.
Reluctantly I took the job. I hated it was available to me through a deal with Dad. I hated I didn’t even know the first thing about it. I hated everything about it but felt obligated to take it and after all, I did need it! I had NO idea what I was doing. I remember the first day I clocked out crying and cried myself to sleep that night and many others that followed. I was sure I’d be fired eventually but at the time I felt I had no choice so I pressed on. At one point I was told by the department head there was no way I could do the job and that I should just quit. That job was a stipulation of Dad’s making the deal he made on the store so I felt obligated to at least try hard. I couldn’t understand the doctors, I had never done that kind of work before. Feeling overwhelmed and under-qualified were understatements to say the least!
I was a mess back then. Bitter and angry for so many reasons. Scared because Matt was such a sick youngin’ that I remember soooo many times sneaking in his room at night to lay my hand on his chest to see if he was still breathing…and I was a divorced mama. Not a fun life. At all. On top of that, as I got into the job and became pretty good at it, I had to miss a lot because of Matt’s medical issues, too many to name here so on more than one occasion I was threatened with being fired. Lo and behold, hospital doctors began asking me to type their office dictation after hours and some even began asking me to type special projects for them. Long story short, I went into business for myself transcribing. Today I have my favourite job ever typing for a company in Australia as a transcriptionist. WHAT!???
My adventure started with the prospects of being out of a job, going into a job I’d never done before (and 100% HATED) which turned out to be provision for me and my son, and it’s lasted a long time. Do you see it? God knew. He KNEW exactly what I needed and allowed a terrifying situation to get me here, all WAY before I even loved Him!! WHAT???!!!
I’m telling you this story (again) to tell you a couple of things.
- Trust God. When things are seemingly falling apart based on my experience, they seriously could be coming together. If you don’t follow Jesus perhaps you should. Although things worked out for me, I strongly suspect – heck, I KNOW things would have been MUCH better had I been in love with Him at the beginning of this whole thing!
- Trust God. Life isn’t easy for any of us but through all that I look back and see He provided for me/us in unusual ways, all the way through! All. The. Way. Through. It wasn’t easy back then – it sometimes isn’t now – but He has been more than faithful. I’ve been blessed to see His hand through ALL of it.
- Trust God. Provision doesn’t look like what we think it should sometimes; well, a lot of the time. Had I had other options back then I surely would’ve taken them – but look what I would’ve missed! I work at home (and have for 30 years now) and Matt as a special needs person can choose his work hours, he chose the kind of work he does, goes where he wants to go (a lot of times providing his own transportation). He’s seizure free for over 25 years now, on no medications…I could go on and on here about the things I thought I would never see happen! I mean WOW has God been amazingly good to us!
- Trust God. I know where I was headed back then and I know He was who changed my direction (in every respect!). Nothing I had the ability to do would have changed my life. HE did it THROUGH the circumstances.
My heart bursts with gratefulness. I should be at the very least homeless, hopeless and alcohol-deranged – if not dead and in hell this very minute – and I’m convinced I would be had it not been for God’s grace, provision and providence in my life.
Friends. When it doesn’t make sense and you’re headed down a road you didn’t even know existed hold on to the One who created you and knows you better than you know yourself. If you’ll allow Him to, He’ll show you great and mighty things you don’t have the ability to even think possible. Do it scared. Do it mad. Do it, in spite of whatever it is you feel or think. Any way you have to do it, do it. I promise you won’t be sorry!
Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT): “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope…”
1st Corinthians 2:9: “This is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.”
Philippians 4:19: “And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.”