I’m one messed up person. I have been through a lot – anyone who’s my age that’s lived any kind of life has. We’re impacted by life events whether we know it or not. We start out as children with the purest intentions and love without any constraint…then life happens to gradually, sometimes unknowingly change all that. We have an inborn expectation that everything is going to be wonderful and easy, everyone will love us just because they say they do; our families will support us and be there for us no matter what we do, what happens or which way we choose to go. We get a little age on us and experience behind us and we become tainted and broken, like a glass that missed a proper setting on the countertop.
We fight and argue, we choose to judge those who are different from us. We stop believing in good and start seeking the bad. We stop believing in pretty much everything for a while perhaps. We become selfish and prideful, even arrogant and demanding. We start hurting people out of our own perceptions and because of what’s happened to us.
I don’t want to love and turn the other cheek. My “nature” is to get before I get got. OVERRULED! The Christ in my life, and His Spirit inside me trumps my want to on many occasions. I find myself often at that critical crossroad where I must decide to LET Him have His way.
I don’t want to work hard to make a living. I’m tired and want things to be easy. OVERRULED! My love for Him forces a decision, yet again. I must decide to do ALL THINGS as if doing them for Him.
I don’t want to take a chance on showing compassion or helping anyone because there were times I was in the same boat and found myself alone. OVERRULED! I know in my Spirit that things have happened for this specific reason – to show what God has done in my life to encourage someone else walking the same road, otherwise it would result in bitterness and be for nothing.
The “BJ Barbie” (before-Jesus-Barbie) was a selfish, mad, bitter and hateful woman incapable of emotions related to compassion. “My nature” – who I really am and what I really WAS, partly because of choice, partly because of what happened – was, IS vile. She still exists, but I CHOOSE not to let her be evident.
More than ever, we must choose to live, act, work and talk to please HIM and not feed our emotions. Sometimes I choose correctly and sometimes I’m overruled; sometimes I choose to be “bad” and even in those times, God still loves me – and Jesus is still very much with me.
Think He’s not with you? Think He’s going to toss you because you’re less than perfect? OVERRULED!!!
Forgive our humanness, Lord. May we allow You to overrule and supercede anything about us.