I’m writing my very first novel. I’ve written short stories and devotionals and this is my first attempt at such a big project. Every time I open the document, I go back to the beginning and critique it to the point where my allotted time to write is more times than not consumed by this process. Over and over and over again, I start at the beginning and find that I’m frustrated and disappointed when I’ve not made any progress. I can’t seem to get anywhere!
Oh that’s a word for our lives isn’t it? I see that same pattern in my life and in my walk with the Lord. I keep going back to painful, regretful spots and “pick the scab”. The Lord does His part and keeps His promise. I see & feel where He’s touched that area of my life and forgiven me and helped me move past it…but I keep opening the wound. I keep going back to that place which makes me feel like I’ve not progressed or gotten over it.
Stop going back! Stop it! When you find yourself remembering that initial pain, hurt, shame or loss, remind yourself you’ve already lived through it; why put yourself back in that spot? Remember how sweet God was to give you just what you needed to move on and not be stuck in that place. When familiar, painful memories of what it felt like when it was happening invade you, intentionally stop yourself and say, “God’s allowed me to live through that once, I don’t need to survive it again”. Yes, remember all He’s brought you through. NO don’t relive the agony again. You don’t have to. You’re here, not there. That was yesterday; this is today. See the difference?
We have to be intentional in our lives. Yes, things happened that were excruciating but we have to sometimes forcefully remember, it’s not that way now. We’re past it. Let’s stay past it. Let’s don’t go back. Let’s move forward.
This morning I opened the novel document and wouldn’t allow myself to look back. Not today. Today I’m making progress. What about you?
Philippians 3:13, 14 NASB: “Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”