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Code 82!! Code 82!!

This morning was a normal morning.  No drama, son got up on time.  Normal, normal.  Calm, calm.  My favourite kind of morning.  Until I got in my car.  Instead of the normal dashboard readings I saw something ominous:  “CODE 82”

Those who know me know NOTHING scares or upsets me more than something being wrong with the car. As I’ve said on multiple occasions, I have many car horror stories.  Immediately I started shaking…and praying.  I pulled out the owner’s manual:  nothing.  Nada.  I was afraid to drive my son to work so we called him a taxi and I waited until my car guy opened his shop.  I talked to God all the way through and practiced saying thank you for whatever it was knowing (I mean REALLY trusting) that whatever it was He would help me take care of it.

Finally it came time for the car place to open.  They told me it was a “change oil” indicator – but that made me feel no better because I had my oil changed around 1000 miles ago (by him).  They weren’t concerned at all; me – another story.  I was trying so hard to be a big girl.  My heart knew Father would help – my head well…let’s just say a fierce battle to ‘walk in the Spirit and not fulfil the lust of the flesh’ was happening. I wanted to smile and believe; I was trying sooooo hard to – but my head kept telling me impending disaster was occurring right before my eyes!

Turns out, it was an oil indicator that hadn’t been reset.  These gentlemen (Calhoun Motor Company) even put it up on the rack, checked the oil and everything under the hood to make sure everything was okay.  They went over and beyond to ease my anxiety.

Two things – AGAIN – came to mind.  First, when trouble or fear hits because we’re human, we’ll have some kind of physical reaction albeit a racing heart, a head game telling you the world’s about to explode or something.

The second thing is, when something does happen (and believe me it WILL), pray FIRST.  Then do what you can do.  Had I just let the car set and fretted over it instead of taking it where I knew I could get it seen to, I would’ve made myself sick eventually. I know because I’ve sat praying for something to be resolved not making any effort to do what I could because I was paralysed in fear or dread and nothing got accomplished.

Even if Code 82 had been something major, I was reminded yet again that my Father is with me through it all. He stands ready to calm and help me – and He wants to.  Instead of running to me though, He waits for me to turn to Him.  I did and we dealt with Code 82.

What are you dealing with right now?  Stop.  Talk to the One who loves you the most then see what can be done.  ****Interestingly, these were my verses this morning.  Thank You Father that I got the chance to put them into practice!  Don’t you LOVE IT!!!!

Philippians 4:4-7 (NASB)  “Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men.  The Lord is near.  Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

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There IS a Reason

We’ve had so much rain for so long the ground is saturated.  Yesterday when we went to our favourite park one of the bridges we usually cross was under water.  The roads I drive on every day were beginning to have standing water on them and I was anxious to get home where it was safe.

Last night around bedtime, which was about the time the rain stopped, a roaring wind began to blow that was so strong it scared my dog and cat.  I drifted off to sleep to the sound of my wind chimes dancing in the powerful wind.

This morning it was noticeably cooler and I noticed while taking my son to work a lot of the water I had seen yesterday was no longer there.  When we walked we were able to cross the now dry bridge that was impassable yesterday.  That scary wind through the night that I thought was bad and frightening had cleared all of our paths today.

That’s a word from our Father! Bad, scary stuff sometimes comes our way and things look washed out and impossible. We worry, fear and hopefully pray for God to remove them, make them better or rectify them.  Soon after in most cases, we find the “bad thing” was actually the blessing because THROUGH what stopped us in our tracks yesterday cleared the way for us today.

We can trust Him.  He allows what he does in our lives for many things, but I’m thinking the most important purpose is to get us to a place where we come to know Him more intimately, rely on and trust in Him more than we did before. It’s all good, my friend!

Psalm 9:10 (NASB):  And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, for You, O LORD have not forsaken those who seek You.

Romans 8:28!!!!  (ALL things)

Shuffled

Shuffled

Some mornings I don’t listen to my music at all but more often than not, I do.  I always choose my favorite songs on my playlist to walk and worship to.  The same ones, over and over again.  I know which ones I need and what will help me get off to a good start.  This morning I decided to hit the shuffle button and I’m so delighted I did.  It was like God knew BETTER THAN I DID what I needed this morning.  I heard songs I didn’t even know I had on my list and by the time we were back to the car, I was lifted up and ready to face the day.

That’s such a good lesson for us!  We’re such creatures of habit and control!  You may not realize it but think of what YOU have planned for this day.  Better yet, think about yesterday, what you had planned and if something happened to upset your apple cart, how you reacted.  Feel me?  We think we have it so together and sometimes we do but let one little (or big) thing disrupt our flow we fall to pieces.

Sometimes God has to hit the shuffle button in our lives to expose issues we have, fears we hide and the real intentions of our heart. That’s when it gets real.  Love can quickly turn to hate, good can turn into selfish and our faith can leave us lacking.  Who are we when we’re shuffled?  That’s who we need to deal with.

The thing about a shuffled list is you don’t know what song you’ll hear next.  Life is very much like that.  Instead of wanting to hear my favourites, I found myself excited to see what God picked for me to hear next!  I surrendered to the shuffle and enjoyed every minute of it! Maybe that’s a message to us to surrender to what God has for us today and not be so naïve as to think we have it all under control.  We don’t!

Jeremiah 29:11 (NASB): ‘For I know the plans that I]have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

1st Peter 4:12-13 (NASB):  “Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you; but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing, so that also at the revelation of His glory you may rejoice with exultation.”

 

FROM It!

So yesterday the car acted up and did something really weird (those of you who know what I’ve been through…I see you laughing, or perhaps holding your breath…). Because of my history with vehicles I was absolutely terrified to drive this morning. Screaming on the inside, I forced myself to take my son to work.  So far everything’s good. Anyway praying every mile & being grateful for every mile, it started to rain. The sky was the most unusual color as the sun was coming out and I was taking it all in, and thankful for the distraction from my anxiety! I looked up and there was a huge cloud. As the sun continued to rise this big cloud didn’t dissipate. I looked up again and all of a sudden there was a rainbow coming straight out of the cloud.

Several things crossed my mind, the first of which was to remember all the promises in the Bible, especially the ones pertaining to God‘s presence. He’s trustworthy. We can trust him. He will never leave us. He will never scold us because of our fear because he knows our humanness and all that encompasses. He doesn’t make fun, He doesn’t roll His eyes and he doesn’t withdraw like most people do when we’re needy or too much for them to handle and actually if we cry out to Him, our humanness draws Him even closer!

The other thing that so touched my heart was the fact that this was the biggest cloud in the sky. FROM the biggest cloud came the most beautiful thing – the rainbow.  God reminded me once again in the tests and trials in our lives, even the biggest ones, the things that cause us the most pain can produce something absolutely beautiful. I’m so grateful to God He showed me that this morning. I needed to be reminded. I need to stay thankful. I need to stay dependent on Him, His strength and His provision in my weakest most frightening moments.  Most importantly I need to keep looking to him and for him in every situation this life brings.

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Go With What You Have

Gideon was in a winepress threshing wheat. I’m sure since it was a winepress and he was trying to thresh wheat it was a hard job because the place was most likely ill-equipped for wheat threshing.  This hard job in a less than favorable place was the result of Israel’s turning from God and being captives of the Midianites.

I can picture him talking to himself not happy with his current circumstances  – because honestly that’s what I would be doing.

In the midst of hardship and hard times, the Angel of the Lord greeted him: “Mighty hero, the Lord is with you!” (Judges 6:12 NLT). Gideon responds with questions and doubts. The Angel didn’t indulge him; he simply said “Go with this strength you have” and save Israel to which Gideon responded with statements justifying the reasons he couldn’t comply – “We’re the least of the least…and I’m the least of the least of the least!”

I know you’ve been there – things are looking pretty bad, so bad you begin to question God.  Prayers seem unanswered and you find yourself in a place you shouldn’t be, never intended to be and don’t want to be in.

Take to heart the truth captured in Gideon’s story.  You have what you need to do what you need to do.  If you’re saved you have Jesus, His power and the Holy Spirit inside you Who is the power to get through what you’re going through.

Go with what you have.  Trust God for the rest.

Judges 6

He Can Handle It

Their eyes meet from across the room.  She tries to talk herself out of being attracted to him; he thinks she’s beautiful.  It seems like every place she goes, he’s there. Finally he catches her in a moment with no one around and he hones in to speak to her, one on one. He’s totally enchanted with her and she, him.  They arrange a meeting and then another.  After being with her for a while, although he’s sure he loves her, he starts to notice the deep wounds she carries.  The more he’s with her, the more prominent the wounds become.

She doesn’t show them to everyone, but she thought she could trust him.  Why else would there be such chemistry and attraction between them if she wasn’t safe to show him who she really is, what has happened to her? Surely she’s safe with him. She wasn’t. She was wrong. Eventually she finds that he, too, once her man of promise, has abandoned her.

Nothing is more beautiful than being loved by someone not because of all you’ve been through and who you really are…but in spite of it.  They come to know even the ugliest you and to your surprise, love you any way. That’s what real love does.  Too often though for one reason or another – good reasons and bad – we find we’re too heavy a package that people drop too easily. We find people can’t handle our reality – the real us.  They like us, they love us, they hate us.  No matter how hard we try to “be good”, be what the other one wants and needs, it’s never enough.

All of us carry wounds others have no idea about until we let them close enough to see.  When we’re exposed, they may decide they can’t handle it and they sometimes become distant.  Love is an overused and abused word used often with good intentions but few results.  Some have heard that word so many times (chimed in with other well-intended promises of faithfulness and love) we don’t want to take the chance on hearing it again.

We can totally expose ourselves to Jesus.  We may as well, he knows it’s all there anyway.  He can handle it.  He’ll never walk away no matter what has to be done to heal the wounds…ALL of them.  He’s perfect love, and human love can only be successful through Him (I believe).  He’ll never be intimidated and reject us because of anything we’ve been through, done or are going through.  We’ll never be too much, too wounded, too lost or too far gone for Him.  He can handle it.  As a matter of fact, what’s hurt us the most and left the ugliest scar on us, He died for.  He came specifically so we could be one with Him, expose ourselves completely to Him and let Him heal us.  He can even make the scars more beautiful.  He changes them from something we seek to cover to things of beauty we long to expose to glorify Him.

Whatever’s going on with you, He can handle it.  Whatever you’ve done, He can handle it.  He died so He could make you whole.  You, beloved, can trust Him.  Will you?

Matthew 11:28:  “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.  (NASB)

Look Back

Life was falling apart, husband said he wants a divorce.  The very night her husband told her his plan, a member of the family called offering her a job in his business because other family members that worked there got a job and other reasons…and offered her a job.  Feeling like it was a meant to be thing, she accepted and moved to their little town to begin the job and a new phase of her life.  She thought it would be wonderful, family close by, actually working for them.  She needed support and if the truth were known, she needed help.  Her son had many health issues from birth and this kind of support would be a dream come true.

It didn’t exactly turn out like that and after a year or so the family member told her he was closing down the business and she would have to get another job but not to worry, he would help her find one.  Because he was very well known in the little town, he asked someone who knew someone who knew someone at the local hospital who told him to have her apply for a Medical Transcription job.  She laughed out loud.  That’s a skilled profession, she had no experience and hadn’t even worked in a doctor’s office.  Impossible.  Ridiculous.  Just trying to get rid of her she thought. But because he pushed, she applied…and got the job.

She remembers sitting at a typewriter bawling, trying not to throw up because she was sure this was absolutely impossible.  “My God, what have I gotten myself into”, she kept saying to herself.  She couldn’t understand a word the doctor was saying and her very job was to type what he was saying!  To make matters worse, the department head told her, “you’ll never make it, I’ll have you gone in 30 days.” She made it very clear she was pressured into hiring her because a board member recommended me (because of the family member) and in a small town, that’s pretty much the way things went.  Nobody was happy with that situation, least of all the woman at the job.  She didn’t want to be there as much as her boss didn’t want her to be there.  A host of crazy things happened but she persevered…

Almost 30 years later, here I am, working at home as a Medical Transcriptionist.  That job (that I was thrust into because of circumstances beyond my control; the job I hated at first) has provided for me and my son.  Not only that because I work at home, I can work around what Matt needs to do – his work, appointments, and things he enjoys in his personal life.  Because he’s site impaired and doesn’t drive, he’s blessed to have a pretty normal and free life.  The kind of work I do allowed me to move back home to Kingsport, which was my heart’s desire.  I can make a living doing something I absolutely love (even though I hated it in the beginning) for an Australian company that has turned out to be the best, most enjoyable job I’ve ever had.

As I remembered all the details that brought me to this moment, I was brought to tears.  The beginning of how I got here was horrible.  I almost quit several times and in between then and now, a lot has happened, good and bad but I stuck with it, sometimes because I had to; other times because I wanted to.

The word that immediately comes to mind is PROVISION.  See, way back then when I thought my life was falling apart, God had a bigger plan.  Even though He was the last thing on my mind at that time, I was foremost in His.  When all that happened, I was lost and, if the truth be known, thought there was absolutely no hope for any kind of halfway decent life at all.

Your life may be crashing right before your very eyes.  You may think you won’t survive what you’re going through; you may hate what you’re doing and are looking for a way out.  Hang on a little bit longer.  Trust God and let your faith in Him grow stronger.   Do what you can do and trust Him for the rest.

Look back for a minute and see how far you’ve come.  Friend, none of it is by accident or happenstance.  Like me, one day you’ll look back and see His presence, love and provision for you every inch of the way.

Jeremiah 29:11-13; Isaiah 43:10